Life ‘persona’ acceptance.

After receiving some excellent counselling with Pete, it has helped me massively realise some of my ‘framework personality’; whatever the hell that is (I made it up), just sounded like a fitting’ish thing!

Well, adding to that (
above) mud paragraph (as clear as...), I’ll share a social media status update, from the day following recent a recent session with Pete:

Facebook status 04/02/21:

”Maybe this counselling is starting to have notable positive effects on me.

Could be the red wine last night; it'd been a while! Honest!

Acceptance, and possibly an/my identity finally found, I think. Before any judgement....

Introvert. A type of an introvert. Makes so much sense to me.

People have described me as 'quiet' in certain places & situations, which internally I refuted. I am not that bloody quiet, I know. Therewith lies the 'however'.

More to follow when I find the volume controls!”

I have always been that ‘nice guy’ that I have held against me, that I know all too bloody well.

It seems to fit in with other personality traits.

The expert counselling – I am getting – is something I have taken up by choice. Yes, a certain ex of mine, whom some readers will know who I mean, mentioned it in 2020. The details about that suggestion matter not, other than it was a helpful suggestion following mine…

So, after doing as I do and thinking / over-thinking a lot, I’ve made the step. And haven’t looked back at that decision since.

All details are personal obviously, yet here I am blogging about it. Well, after the 1^st couple of sessions, ‘sounding’ each other out, for suitability mainly (I think), deeper and more thoughtful points and ideas were – and as of typing, still are – helpfully shared. Not with you!

Not selling this well? That is not my intention; however.

The main ‘point’ I have grabbed, regarding ME, is that I am fundamentally a type of INTROVERT. Not being a phycologist, values of such type haven’t in the past carried a great deal of value. Why would they.

But here’s the thing. Yes, I have previously received other counselling to aid me with ‘mental health’ issues, in a phrase. Yet, those didn’t have clarity at their respective ends. Never mind!

Now though, I can happily accept what I know of suggested TRAITS, and easily link them to ME and my psyche.

It is not a square peg – square hole picture, yet a damn site closer to that than I’ve ever seen. A clearer picture.

Yet there’s more! I mentioned the ‘nice guy’ earlier. A trait? Not by name…but. A Rescuer. That is something that is quite hard to accept, and a lot of any formal definition about it, get a “no” from me. ‘Wet flannel?’ (informal) Not me judge!

And more! This psychological phenomenon of ‘Imposter Syndrome’, is in my mind that I am a perfectionist (hands-up) and damn it, more than that.

That’s enough of that though.

I am a lot better that OK by the way! Thanks for reading!

F1 Aerodynamics in Schools

Being a STEM Ambassador, I keep check with what STEM enrichment activities are planned that I feel I could support with my experience. I saw an “ F1 Aerodynamics ” related request and it tickled my buds somewhat! So I vested my interest via the formal portal/method to/with STEM and this was responded to. What was the challenge? It is a global competition given as per: “ The Competition - What's It All About? You are a Formula One™ team commissioned to design, construct and race the fastest Formula One Car of the Future, powered by compressed air cylinders. ” The first of the activities was in a middle school in Whitley Bay, to simply share my experience (having been an Aerodynamicist) with the Year 8 kids taking part in the F1 challenge. I enjoyed helping them with what they were doing at that part of their challenge. BBC! Wow. I would have loved to have had that opportunity at that age. Unbelievable! Showing my age, a bit?! (my middle school had a

MS blog October 2023

MS blog October 2023 25/9/23 This week of this, bad sleep, fatigue, affecting speech - #Dysphasia - and fatigue linked problems like forgetting to do certain things, eg. Download Toon ticket properly! Tired. 04/10/23 (Wednesday) Again bad sleeps, bad #fatigue. Here's the thing. More notable 'cognitive overthinking' in that I am not on the money. Yet, was fine for the #MS #Zoom on Monday night. And starting to unintentionally upset Catherine, and therefore me too. FB post: #Tysabri At time of writing, I am pretty bloody next-level-tired. Or feeling fatigued, in the #MS world. Those who know that; know. Yes, I AM saying that #MS #Fatigue IS different to ‘just’ being tired. Who am I to say that? Someone who has lived with the twat (#MultipleSclerosis) for maybe 26 years now. Maybe more. I don’t know. So, #Tysabri. Well I started with this amazing #DMD (disease modifying drug) over 13 years ago, and it “made me a new man”

Ocrevus

Ocrevus . Notes 1 The infusion was completed at 1pm, and I was asked to wait for 15 minutes after the cannula had been removed. I was told to take it easy for the rest of the day, that'd I'd be tired. Body not used to the new drug, nor my mind, given that I had been anxious about #Ocrevus day. Ok then, I'll accept a lazy day. Was planning a curry takeaway anyway! I am tired. A few nights of bad / poor sleep. Ocrevus. Notes 2 Second infusion (second half dose) done by 1ish. Then again asked to rest for the day. Yes, as per, I was tired. #Anxiety due to an earlier taxi booking (for 07:20), with the small alarm fear! And also a few wake-ups during the night. Usual, but! Prepared with laptop, phone (obviously), headphones, sarnie, bottle of water, and chargers in case. And a BBCi downloaded film. The same as my first unknown Ocrevus trip. Slower start than last infusion, but after the paracetamols and antihistamine, the weak steroid infusion did its thing for half an hour; wi

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